December 2009
the last day
i seriously cannot believe this year is ending.
or actually its not ending, everyone’s just getting ready for a new beginning thats all, i suppose :]
PEOPLE TO THANK:
my parents - for annoying and frustrating me out of my mind, yet STILL with the ability to make me love them unconditionally
my sisters - for being there when i need to rant. and call some names. and my baby sister for just...
“Think of a humiliating experience you’ve had, when all you did was sit...”
– Uma Thurman in Reader’s Digest
“Have great, secret,big, fat, hopes for yourself.”
– Gloria Vanderblt in Glamour
“Words are the pen of the heart, but MUSIC is the pen of the soul.”
– Shneur Zalmau
“Music is a total constant. That’s why we have such a strong visceral connection...”
– everytime.
Sarah Dessen (via stadiumlove)
I LOVE THIS BOOK!
(via instantly)
(via jonilandblog)
why
why does my mom judge my friends based on race and the number of times i call them and how long the conversation lasts?
why does my dad want to control everything just because he can?
why do i bother to care about him even when i really really really wanna stay mad for once?
why does life put me in situations that i dont know the purpose of?
why do my parents misunderstand me? and threaten to...
goals
time to achieve goals!
ive botched the running one, the practicing every day one, the reading chinese one, the not making parents mad one, the being nicer to my sister one…
oh gosh.
the only thing ive acomplished is cleaning out my closet. and my bathroom
woop..
WHAT MADE MY CHRISTMAS
my sister got me
*drumrooollll*
a
STARBUCKS GIFTCARD~~
for $5 only i get to go nuts :D
“As humans we take many things for granted. One is surely the ablity to walk,...”
– Rob Dunn in National Geographi Dec. 2009 p. 124
a self-esteem booster..maybe
i just got out of the shower, and i guess i was inspecting my face pre-tty closely in the mirror, because my sister, while brushing her teeth, leaned over and said:
” Oh, my friend Evi thinks you’re gorgeous.”
- insert face that’s stuck between rolling on the floor laughing and disbelief -
THEN she follows up with
” I don’t know whats wrong with her.”
hitting myself. and this is another LONGG one
urm its time for a big mental whack again..or maybe after this i’ll need a physical one too =.=
it totally creeps me out sort of, because our roles are almost directly reversed. now he’s the one with the significant someone, and im the one he can brush aside now. even more than ever. is it because he doesnt want to get too close again..? or *GASP* is it payback? <:/
there are heck...
YEAR OF THE TIGER!
crazibunni:
im looking forward to it
i hope it bring more luck and prosperity to my family
i hope it brings lots more love and friends to my life
i hope it brings safety and health to my relatives
and i hope it brings excitement and growth to tumblr
lets get excited about 2010 you guys!
DEFINITELy MORE EXCITEMENT!!!!! ahh i CANT WAIT! :]
“There is always the risk: Something is good and good and good and good, and then...”
– from the book Let It Snow, A Cheertastic Christmas Miracle by John Green
going nuts...not really
um turns out i dont have to think about stuff anymore because people are doing it for me…
AND ITS HARD TO UNTHINK THINGS ONCE YOU HEAR THEM!!!!!
ok ok ok. its actually quite simple. maybe.
1. talk to him about why
2. figure out if i do. which i hope i dont.
3. figure out if anyone does. again, probably not.
4. sit back and wait.
5. stop thinking xD
..BUT I CAN”T UNTHINK IT!! I...
i dunno
looking back, i dunno if ive moved on yet.
i dunno if ive changed for the better, if everything ive done this year is really me
i dunno if i can ever do better..maybe i should go back cuz it was the best i wouldve gotten.
i dunno what to think anymore.
I confess that in 2009, I have....
crazibunni:
technicolorhearts:
mashedpotatomesses:
stormofgenius:
tiresome:
hannahbby:lottieeeee:uppereastside:monicagellerb:fastlive:itsashley:infinitebutterflies: thelovelybones:heythereace:blogspotoriginal:-dannx:thechocolatebrigade:
() stayed single for the whole year () made out in/on a car () kissed in the snow () celebrated Halloween () kissed in the rain (x) had your heart...
“Cause when you’re fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You’re gonna...”
– taylor swift (fifteen) (via crazibunni)
gifts! and candy!
things that i love MOST about christmas time (in this order)
1. getting stuff for people! its the best feeling in the world finding the PERFECT gift, cuz u get to picture the other person’s face when u open it, and sometimes i get so excited i just want to tell them before they do and ruin it xD if only i had more money..id spread more of my love EVERYWHERE!!!!! :]
2. buying candy. then...
finals week update
crazibunni:
exams:
Dance final (took easy way out and tried out for dance team to get a free 100)
Orchestra final performance (sucked but got an 92! my quartet members rock)
Spanish III final exam (i pwned this thing)
World History AP final exam
Chemisty I final exam
Pre Calculus final exam
English II final exam
wish me luck u guys. the hardest 4 exams are the ones left!
hows the...
bus ride
so all i could talk to kevin on the bus today was food.
i was staring out the window going “im so..hungry..”
“look..shipley’s donutss ” - kevin laughs
“look…HEBBBBB!” - kevin laughs again
“look…genghis grillll ..” - kevin looks at me
repeat and repeat “im so…hungryyy…” - no response now hes used to it.
...
only THREE days!
fantasy-island:
Things I want/ need to do over winter break =)
1. go play laser tag because sun never has!
2. go bowling at night, i think that’s super fun…maybe i’m crazy
3. make jacob watch harry potter 4 and 5
4. have several of my friends spend the night at my house, at once…it’ll be pure chaos =)
5. make sure mengdi doesn’t get in trouble
6. make christmas cookies!!
7. just be happy...
this is funny yet sad at the same time
crazibunni:
my standardized test scores make other asians cry.
this is how desperately nerdy i am.
im sure no one wants to be friends with me now.
XD
I DO! cuz i didnt take it xDD
not doing anything
this feeling of not doing anything feels good.
ima get all my christmas stuff tmrw i think…and the stuff for the candy bags ima give people :D
i luv christmas :] i just wish it would be more christmasy..
and PLEASE PLEASE dont ask me for advice since i dont give such great advice..and the stuff i say ends up confusing even myself. yea xD
or if u look past the fact that im crazy id be...
UKULELE BOY →
christmas wish list
crazibunni:
1) gift card to mall or just sephora… high time i got myself some decent concealer or at least non smudgy eyeliner
2) boxers…. need funny one to wear around the house or to bed
3) flat abs XD i want a toned body! gah i like how i look just wish it was a bit more… tighter?
4) new bike… my old one is dying from overuse
I WILL SEARCH DILIGENTLY FOR THE 2ND ONE!! >:D
GAWD NOT DONE
TO FINISH NOW:
1. WHAP foldable
2. PCP thing
3. dig out gym clothes to wash them…
O M GEEE
knowing myself
crazibunni:
wait-brb:
crazibunni:
knowing myself is important.
in fact is not just important, its MASSIVELY important.
so im going to tell you 5 things i know about myself.
1) i enjoy the chase and excitement of lust over the fluttering hearts of love
2) i hate people who are weak in the emotional sense. i want people to be able to stand by themselves and not constantly lean on others be...
“” The first step of getting the things u want out of life: Deciding what...”
my finals stuff.
im too tired to think. or deal with stuff. so i think im a hypocrite in one sense..but lets not worry about that. cuz i dont want to deal with it. or think about it.
MUST DO’s :
1. buy secret santa gift TODAY
2. organize PCP for tomorrow
3. finish WHAP foldable..which i am failing at
4. verbal irony ws for PRIDE AND PREJUDICE =.=
5. read over english stuff for essay tomrrow
6....
knowing myself
crazibunni:
knowing myself is important.
in fact is not just important, its MASSIVELY important.
so im going to tell you 5 things i know about myself.
1) i enjoy the chase and excitement of lust over the fluttering hearts of love
2) i hate people who are weak in the emotional sense. i want people to be able to stand by themselves and not constantly lean on others be take the blow for them.
...
joj! ur winter present is HERE!
jonilandblog:
crazibunni:
its funny and cute
but not that awkward….
hope u’ll like it!
its adorable
ooh can’t wait!
I HAVE URS TOO!! as in jonis xD i dont think its cute or adorable though..
“You’re only given a little spark of madness. You musn’t lose it!
-...”
christmas music :D
i am officiallly allowed to sing christmas music!!!!
starting MONDAY!!! lemme find lyrics to songs xD
ahhhh i love christmas ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT!!
and concert was AMAZING cept for my face turning red..and sarah putting herself down…:(
YAY FOR CHRISTMAS
DISREGARD THIS
i have explosive anger that doesnt last. but this one lasted at least..15 minutes. k? but dont read this.
she can deal with it by herself. im sick of feeling guilty because of her. ive thought for her long enough..and again with the feeling guilty. she didnt have to give up. she chose to. she CHOSE to like him when she KENW that i did. so she had to deal with it. this is not my fault that i do...
QueSTION TIME
am i acting shady? or am shady?
tell THE TRUTH.
in the cold
i just finished reading the book “let it snow”
and it gave me a really good feeling inside, like an “awwww” feeling.
only now i think im missing out on stuff..
like stuff that u want to have when the holidays roll around.
someone to hug u when ur lonely, hold ur hand tightly when ur cold, make funny faces in the windows and blow breath clouds together, drink warm...
storie(s) of the day
1. at h- mart this mexican bagging dude was… staring at me when i came in with my dad and sister. then when we were checking out too. pedofilish much?? thank goodness he wasnt old xD
2. “live” fish we bought wasnt quite dead..my sister noticed when she saw the shoppping bag jump. JUMP!!
3. i got new blue slippers!!! with blue pom poms!! and they’re FUZZy <3
:]
just fyi
i am NOT. repeat NOT. freaking out about certain things.
certain things that are not true at all. NOT TRUE.
AND im limiting my use of caps…starting now.
band
band concerts are so. frekin. long.
i saw sun’s mom!! and dad!! and brother!!
and james seriously needs to cut his hair. see, his eyes are not quite large, right? so from farrrrr awayyyy and then with allllll that hair…makes them kinda sorta hard to see..
and people asked me why i was there xD
frankly, i dont know. james asked me to go, so i was like what the heck sure!
their...
i cant wait to love you
crazibunni:
whoever you are out there
yea if only u had an “I AM HERE” w. an arrow balloon
project update #1
im either 1/15th or 1/14th done with it :]
good, right?
“It’s a book of memories. It remembers where Piglet’s been!
- Pooh...”
my ephifamy whatever
i think its me that thinks my dad thinks all my guy friends are sumthing to be suspicious about
SO THAT WOULD MEAN im causing myself stress by worrying about telling him stuff cuz im afraid of what he’ll say and think, AND getting nervouse cuz he asks a heck of a lot of questions..that may seem curious but just gets creepy at times. like last names.
BUT i still freeze up when he asks...
Isn't the weather amazing?!
jonilandblog:
Sometimes those who we love leave us. But this isn’t the case with you. I wanted you so bad and you came for me and stayed there all night, not even minding how freaking cold it was. I really love that. And you’re still here and will no doubt even be with me when I leave to go on vacation. Even if I tried to get rid of you, you’d just come back because you love me. Thank you...
the snow
cold slushy snow all over my jacket head face hands butt xD
it was AWESOME.
2 hours of freezing
ohh i even met simon at the park w. jacob and esther and sebastian.
yea..we sorta had to hide our eyes for a few times…
it was fun.
soooo worth the yelling i got when i got home..yea.
YAY FOR SNOW